Monthly Archives: March 2012

The Bottomless Pit

While eating breakfast at a Chicago home-cooking restaurant, I was amazed to find I did not finish everything on my plate.  I had my eggs and two mini salmon cakes, but barely touched the grits, cornbread or biscuit.  This floored me not for the first time this month.

I have said it before and I will say it again: I used to be a bottomless pit.

I would not only clean my own plate, but you better believe not a single appetizer was taken from the table uneaten.  And, if I saw a friend’s food going to waste, I might offer to take it off their plate.  Though I suppressed how this overeating made me feel, if I’d taken the time to listen to my body, it was likely in pain; I’m sure my stomach was stretching to new limits.  My body could only just handle what I was doing to it, and doing to it completely mindlessly.

Perhaps there was some bit of wholeness or completeness that came with a full stomach or a completely cleaned plate.  Everyone has their “thing.”  I have a cousin who constantly empties the crumb tray on toasters – says it makes her feel good, like she can’t relax until the toaster crumbs are taken care of.   For some it’s having a cup of freshly sharpened pencils, doodling while on the phone, locking the front door, counting to 23 in their heads over and over again (I know someone who does this, by the way).  I can’t say for certain this is what emptying my plate did for me.

But today, watching the waiter take some of my food away, was a sense of accomplishment – not for what I did in that meal, but rather for the different way I approach food these days.  The goal of eating out with a friend is no longer what I get to eat; the focus is now on the time spent together, the conversation had.  And, for this reason, there’s little to no eating out alone anymore, and very rare occasions of picking up food.

It’s comforting to know my pit has a bottom now.

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Vacation Part 2

This vacation is very different from my general idea of vacation.  With a “normal” vacation for me, I’d love to be in a big, preferably foreign, city and peruse the streets taking pictures.  Visiting Chicago feels a little like the early days of college when I would visit my home town of Corpus Christi – so many people you want to see, with little interest in sight seeing.  And before you know it, you trip is half over and you feel like there were so many people you didn’t connect with.

Also, I thought I would be ALL ABOUT the eating out at my favorite restaurants, and that I would have to fight the urge to order too much when I undoubtedly went to them.  Instead, I’m not feeling the urge to visit them all.  The only one I *really* wanted to visit has been visited, and anything else, I can take it or leave it.

Last night, I had dinner (at 4:30 PM) with my 92ish Great Auntie Jean, her daughter and son-in-law.  I guess when you’re over sixty, your idea of “a good restaurant” is vastly different.  It’s about decent tasting food, LOTS of options (but no real specialty), and value.  It just so happened that what I ordered came with a salad AND a side AND a drink AND a dessert.  Oh my.  I nibbled on everything, though left 90% of my fettuccine Alfredo in my Aunt’s fridge.

This morning, when she pressed me to tell her what I wanted for breakfast, I told her I’d cook some eggs.  By the time I walked in the kitchen, she had pulled out everything I would need – two eggs, pan, spatula AND… a pat of butter, already in the pan. Guess the concept of olive oil spray has not made it to the pre-boomer generation yet.  And so, I had buttery eggs so as not to offend or confuse my little aunt (though I can honestly say I’d have preferred not to).

This evening, I had a great time.  I met my friend Linda and her family at a local Chicago pizzeria before heading to a Bulls game (my first!).  Again, I did really well (all things considered) with eating, having just one (one!) slice of pizza, salad, and one slice of fried zucchini and one fried cheese ball.  I spent the rest of the evening curled up on the sofa dishing with my pal Linda.  Perfect day :)

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Vacation, Part 1

So yesterday, I made my way to Chicago!  I happen to be staying in my old neighborhood, and seeing tons of old friends (so much so, that I haven’t really left any time for sight-seeing!).  It’s also been a flashback into old (and lingering) eating habits.

Let’s just start with the worst of it and get that over with.  I have not been to an airport since 2010.  I used to travel quite a bit for travel and recall business travel being the time I “get” to eat at the airport.  I would get to the Chicago airport with enough time to have breakfast at the airport Chili’s – dine-in.  Yesterday though, I arrived at the airport with the intention of getting just ONE breakfast taco from the Austin Airport’s Maudie’s.  Standing in line and reviewing the menu board, I see that there is a breakfast combo with two tacos for $6.  And so without thinking, guess what I purchased?  After receiving the two tacos, I recalled my plan, and decided to have one before my flight and save the other for the tail-end of my flight.  Forgot again.  Before I knew it, I’d eaten both tacos prior to flying and didn’t remember my plan until much later (when I was hungry again).

This frightened me slightly.  How easy it is to mindlessly put on weight (I’d done it for years)!  Even when TRYING to be mindful, the slightest distraction can well, distract you from the best of intentions.

So that was the worst of it, honestly.  On the positive side:

(1) The airplane used to be a time for free soda.  (Side note: I used to have a mantra that free food/drink trumps healthy food/choices).  But, with the two tacos mentioned above, I also purchased a bottled water.  So, I politely declined the beverage choices and peanuts, as I’d just had an unintentionally large breakfast.

(2) A friend of mine asked me to pick up lunch and bring it by his place (he’s not rude – just works from home and was on a 3-hour conference call).  He’d asked me to pick up some Noodle and Company, though I had to talk him out of it, as the only think that looks appetizing (to me) on that menu is mac and cheese or grilled cheese.  His alternate was Panera.  Now, Panera might very well be a small part of the last 20 pounds I gained.  I would spend my last Saturday’s in Chicago there, studying for the Teaching exams.  I would typically order an Asiago bagel with garden veggie cream cheese and something else (nothing in particular).  This may not be THAT bad for someone maintaining weight, but I was not in maintenance at that stage in my life.  I just needed a good study spot.  Still, I was surprised to see they had low-calorie soup options (and the salt wasn’t terrible either).  Not the most nutritious, but considering I hadn’t eaten since 7:30 AM (and it was now 1:30 PM), I was mostly interested in kick-starting my metabolism again.

(3) I went to one of my favorite burger places here, The Counter.  I am embarrassed to say that (a) I have day dreamed about this place and their pretzel buns and one of the most amazing veggie burger patties around.  In addition to my standard, (b) I would always encourage the table to get an order of either sweet potato fries or Parmesan fries.  This place would turn me into a bottomless pit.  Yesterday though, I stuck to the burger and stole only a FEW fries off the plates of my friends.  In the end, my meal was between 700 and 800 calories (including the fries).  That’s more than my typical dinner, but my calories for the day were under 2,000, which still creates a deficit.

(4) I went grocery shopping upon arrival – to get breakfast and snack items, and identified the new trader joe’s near my “hotel” for other quick meals.

I’m really excited to be on vacation.  I still want to get exercise in, but feel the tug to spend as much time as I can with friends.  I know someone will post and say to work out with friends (and perhaps I will), but for the moment, I’m really trying to get on the road to see my 90-year-old great-aunt!!

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Vacatioooooon

(That was in the voice of Oprah, in case you couldn’t tell).

Yes, that is right!  This girl right here is headed to Chicago for six whole nights.  For those of you new to the blog, I used to live in Chicago – nearly 2 years ago, and this will be my first time back to visit friends.  I’m really looking forward to seeing old faces, catching up with friends, and relaxing.

Shhh… don’t tell my coworkers just yet, but I will be taking on a new role at my current company.  This vacation happens to fall right before some new, big responsibilities kick in and so I’m hoping it serves as a bit of a reflection time, and time to gear up.

Chicago holds such a huge place in my heart.  I ended up there on a bit of a whim.  About to be jobless in Austin, I had three offers on the table – Warwick England, Chicago, and Austin.  Chicago won me over with their slick public transportation, and old manager I really enjoyed working for (and who made a strong case for the city), and ultimately the pay was best there.  Unexpectedly, I found an AMAZING church there that really has now had a huge role in my Faith with a capital F.

I expect to be a little emotional while there.  It’s crazy to think I wasn’t even 30 when I lived there and here I am at 31.  So much time has passed since I left.

I am thinking about my weight as I head there.  I’m going to do a weigh-in the morning I leave and my goal is to not gain any weight.  I’m looking into some gyms near the family I’m staying with, and want to cook a lot of food at the house.

The other big score for this trip: I will get to see my Auntie Jean.  See, my grandmother grew up in Chicago, and her sister still lives there – the closest relative to my Grandmother, I’d say.  Sure, I have my mom, aunt and uncle, but my Auntie Jean knew her as a little girl.  She’s pointed out the house my grandmother grew up in, and told me all sorts of stories.  Mostly though, my great aunt and I have camaraderie.  She’s amazing, and loving, and chatty and all that.  She’s the only woman I’ve ever met over the age of 70 to drop an F-bomb (my dad was there to witness it).

I cannot wait to share my trip with you!

Consolations and Desolations

Consolations: meeting this guy!

Desolations: none!

Friday Update

I have come so far!  Today, I will report progress to date:

Weight: lost 24.2 lbs
Neck: lost 1 3/4″
Waist: lost 7 3/8″
Hips: lost 5 3/8″

I’m really happy with my progress this week.  A good bit of tennis, back to boot camp, and lots of calorie tracking and low cal eating. 

I’m also particularly proud to have two Weeks of loss in a row.  In recent months, when I had I good week, I would celebrate with a bad week.  Then it would take me a couple of weeks to work off the bad week.  One step forward and two steps back. 

Come visit the site next week for an exciting announcement!  And have a terrific weekend :-)

Scale

Looking forward to the scale tomorrow.  That is all.

Undies

I love Gillian O’Malley underwear from Target.  They come in a two-pack, generally for $12, which breaks my own personal $5 max for panties.  But, they are snug, produce a minimal panty line, and don’t budge once on.

About 7 months ago, I decided it was time for some new undies.  You know what I’m talking about?  You open your top dresser drawer and just think, I don’t want to wear any of these.  And so, instead of running to Target and dropping $60 on 10 pairs of bikinis, I would buy a pair each time I happened to be at Target, each time in a different color.

Well, I’d been noticing, with TWENTY THREE pounds lost, that there was some extra slack in the buttocks area (attractive-sounding, I know).  The other thing about these panties (unlike VS or Soma, for instance), you cannot try these on.  And so today, facing the Gillian O’Malley end cap, and seeing a brand new pair of colors (HEATHER grey!), I had to make a call: the size I usually get or one size smaller with the risk/disappointment/reality they won’t fit.  But one size down I did go, and they fit!

You are reading the blog of a girl sitting on her sofa in heather grey bikinis with a big grin on her face.  Please don’t be a weird stalker.  And, I will save you a photo. :-P

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How I do Breakfast

 

 

 

 

 

 

New Favorite Dinner

This is Spicy Shrimp Casserole.  It is my new favorite dish.  I know it looks a little odd in the pan, but think of it topped with tortilla strips and chopped tomatoes.

It is no secret that I LOVE Mexican food.  Every “diet” Mexican recipe, disappointingly, includes all the elements of Mexican food I dislike (bell peppers), and removes the elements I do (cheese, corn tortillas).

This recipe, which I pulled out of a Diabetes What to Eat cookbook (though I am not diabetic), is amazing.  It combines many of my favorite foods: shrimp, cheese, corn tortillas, green salsa.  I know it looks like an odd color, but it really is amazing.  And how does it stack up nutrition wise?

242 calories per 3/4 cup serving
8g fat
25g carb
3g fiber
20g protein

Pair it with a side veggie and boom.  Dinner is served.

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