This blog has really been what’s kept me going with weight loss this time around. Any other time, I would have completely lost focus months ago and just reverted back to comfort/easy zone. This blog keeps me accountable – to my family, my friends, strangers and of course myself.
But sometimes putting it all out there is unexpectedly tough. When I’m honest about my pitfalls, you all know. Sometimes I’m straight up honest, and sometimes I approach it in humorous way, but I always try to remain real. True to who I am.
And sometimes, the response I get hurts. Be it comments or private messages, some people really feel it’s their job to call me out – even though I’m calling myself out. I said in my very first post that sometimes I need that no-holds-barred feedback, as opposed to the candy coating. But it hurts anyways. (And by the way, it has never come from someone who has lost 100+ lbs, or who needs to lose it themselves.)
It’s not that I don’t appreciate it, because it rattles me to the point of getting me to GO. PULL THROUGH. Even if it’s presumptuous, ill-informed, or tough-love, it DOES make an impact on me, but only after I’ve had time to process it.
Yesterday was a weird, weird day. I don’t know if the birth control hormones are still affecting me or what, but I’m feeling introverted, anti-social, and anti-workout. #truthbomb
And this morning, I woke up IN TIME to go to boot camp, but drug my feet getting out the door and ultimately drove right past it when I realized I’d be 10+ minutes late. I know – it’s pathetic. NOBODY needs to call me out on it, though I know someone will – whether it’s a reply to this post, or they try to sneak it in five posts from now. (I’m onto you.) I hate it, but bring it on.
While I try to work through my grouchy, crabby, hormonal mood swings and grit my teeth through every temptation I (try to) turn away, I know that every single reader of this blog – blunt or not – wants me to succeed. And though the comments sting, I have to make sure they don’t discourage me from being honest.
This blog makes me accountable. Even if some people want to take my honesty and scold me for it, so be it. I’m not perfect, and I’m OK with it.